Day 1

Well, I was side tracked by some personal issues. But I am back on the road to a healthier me.

 Yesterday was Day 1- Day 1 of no meat.
 Breakfast- piece of cake (ok now don't shoot me!)
 2 cups decaf coffee with Sugar Free French Vanilla Creamer

Lunch- tri colored rotini pasta salad with cucumbers, onions, tomatoes and italian dressing
 1/2 twix bar. (I ate the left side. lol)
 half a sprite
 15 four cheese cheezits

Supper- Half a mediterrain. veggie sandwich from Dominos
 2 pc of med. white sauce pizza with green peppers and onions.

 Drank over half gallon of water My breaks at work I have been trying to stay active and walk around. 

Yesterday was also Day 7 of no alcoholic drinks! Sunday I had a sip of Frankie's beer but that was it. Just a sip. I drink a lot of water (not that this has ever been an issue), gatorade (probably not the best but we all have some type of vice right) and Lemonade from my Soda Stream.

 So as for the Dental work I had done. Let me say I am not as fond of the dentist as I was 2 weeks ago. My mouth is healing for the most part but NOW I have bone sticking out of the back of my gum. Bone from the graph the dentist insisted on doing. I am less than happy. I will not go back to this quack job. I will need to find someone else to fix this guys mistake- if it can be fixed.

My lessons with the Missionaries are going well. I did finish lesson 3 with them. YAY! I really love my Missionaries. My friend, KF, has been such a blessing to me.

Welp. Time to get ready to head to work.

Hope everyone has a blessing filled day. "To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten

New Year. New Me. New Attitude. New Goals.

I am back. I feel so disappointed in myself for letting myself get to this point in my life. To the point of weighing and hurting so much. I hate looking at myself and hate being the fat one. I need to get off my arse and get moving.
 I am FAT, Overweight, OBESE. (ouch these words hurt.)
 I hate that I can't walk to my car after work and talk on the phone without getting winded. Grr.. Damn it I am only 40 and there are 90 year old healthier than me.
 Now that I have admitted this to myself I feel that I can get on. I am only going to go down from here. Down to a smaller size. I plan on writing here daily (but know that maybe only twice weekly I will get here but I will try) of the trials and tribulations of my weight loss journey. I know it wont be pretty. I know it wont be nice but Damn it I am going to do it.. I am going to get myself down to my goal weight.

 Starting Tomorrow. (only because today I am on pain killers for a tooth that was extracted last week and has caused so much pain to my jaw.)
 My plan for tomorrow is:
 Meet with the Missionaries and my friend KF.
 Devotional- Finish 1Nephi 19 and 20. Finish up with Lesson 2 Plan of Salvation.
 Housework
 Monkey to USPS to pick up package
Dinner
 Work out with Hubby using our Beach Body workout DVD's (he has P90X BUT I can't do that.......YET!)

I have changed my eating goals again. I am planning on a mostly vegetarian diet. I may add the occasional red meat and often some type of seafood. But mostly vegetarian (I had cucumber sandwich yesterday- OMGosh JUMMY (as we say instead of yummy!) Right now I have some red beans slow cooking in vegetable broth in my crockpot. These will be broken up and vacuum sealed into smaller portions (approx. 1.5 C) some will be used right away. I recently purchased a new Vegan Slow Cooker cookbook that I just can't wait to use.

 So about my tooth. I had broken a tooth last year sometime (mid year) and put off going to the dentist. Finally the pain became too much and I figured the amount of Orajel going into my system had to be bad.. I broke down and went to the Dentist... BUT not for the broken tooth. That one still does not bother me. I went to the Dentist Jan 6th only to be told that I had a major infection in my mouth (WHAT!!) and that I needed to be on an antibiotic for at least 24 hours. Not a happy camper was I. So back on the 7th. Had the tooth pulled AND a bone graft done. Good thing that came from this is that since then I have had no desire to drink beer.. That must have been my beer tooth! lol I did drink some one night. Two nights ago I was able to finish one. Last night I could barely drink the one I had. So no beer... Never thought I would say that. Can't guarantee how long that will be the case but no beer now (this will help with the plan of weight loss too!) I think I over did it and started eating solid foods to quick but after 4 days of mac and cheese, mashed potatoes and pudding I had to have real food... Well... Not good. Two days ago at work I was eating a chicken salad wrap (safe right? pretty soft stuff- my thought process) and BAM! HUGE BUTT bone poked me in the gums. Of course it could have only poked one place and that was all it took. I have been in terrible pain since. Son of a motherless biscuit eating goat it HURTS!! So now it is back to soft foods for a few days. But I found that a baked potato and chili (thankfully Wendy's chili has such little pieces in it I am able to mostly swallow instead of chew)fill me up. A large chili will last me two "feedings" (lol)


 Hope everyone has a wonderful blessing filled today. "To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten

I broke down this past Thursday and joined.. Are you ready? Are you sure? Ok. I joined a GYM! Woo Whoo!! Yeah me! I know I am tooting my own horn but this is something I never thought I would do. I even hired a personal trainer one day a week. My first personal training episode was this past Friday. My legs have just stopped screaming at me. It has been a chore walking up and down the stairs and even doing some of the normal things that a person does during the day. Let me just say I became quite fond of the handicap bar in the restrooms at work. I have pretty much gotten my diet down. Well, not DIET DIET but Diet as in way of eating. I have become very good at calorie counting and food measuring. It has been a month that I have been doing this and it really has gotten much easier. I do allow myself one day where counting calories is a no no. I have not eating at a fast food "joint" in a month. I don't miss it at all. I feel amazing. Well, I do need to get off the computer. 6 am comes pretty early and I need to be at the gym.

I really need to get better at this..

Well, I have been slowly changing the way I eat and my exercise level. In 3 weeks I lost 6 pounds. Tomorrow will be week 4 weigh in. I am using a program that a friend showed me called My Fitness Pal. It is an app on my phone so it is always with me. I love that I can scan bar codes for calories and such for the foods I eat and can track them. It feels good to be accountable. I am able to use another app- Runtastic- to gauge my walks and then the calories burned are automatically transferred over to My Fitness Pal. I have increased my exercise. I have a sedentary job and that helped me pack on the extra weight. Back in 2009 I worked hard to lose almost 80 pounds. This was achieved my walking to and from work 5 days a week (1.5 miles each way) or riding a bicycle. Then being on my feet for my whole shift and up and down ladders. So now that I drive to work and sit for my job in the past 2.5 years I have gained almost 50 pounds ( a total weight gain of 98 pounds in 4 years. GASP!) So, it has hit me that this is not acceptable. I don't want to be the girl with the pretty face and the fat body. I am tired of squeezing myself into chairs and not having pretty clothes to fit. For some reason it seems that manufacturers think that fat people = ugly clothes. My goal is a total of 164 pounds to lose. I am hoping for a loss of 1.5 pounds a week. I have recently taken up walking again. I was walking during my 15 minute breaks. Half mile each break. Today I started using my lunch break for the full mile walk and then split my lunch between my two breaks. I will be joining a gym this weekend coming. I have to wait until a day off so I can go there during office hours to join. I have changed my thoughts on food. I am learning that I don't need to eat that last cupcake. It can go to the trash. I don't need to overfill my plate. I don't need to eat junk food all the time. I don't need the chips from the vending machines at work. I have not eaten at the cafeteria at work in almost 3 weeks. This was my favorite place to eat during the week days. I have been bringing my lunch. A sample of my lunch is a flat bread with 2T mayo with olive oil, 2 chicken tenders (not breaded. boneless. skinless) cooked with Mrs. Dash seasoning, some baby spinach leaves and my new favorite guacamole. I drink just about a gallon of water a day. To achieve this I carry a gallon jug at work and that is all I drink. I do allow myself diet soda when I am home. One or two. I know GASP but I have to have this vice right now. I have also become very adept in measuring my food. I do allow myself a sweet. I take 1/4C (a serving) of M&Ms to work. I snack on these all through out the day. When that 1/4C is gone I am done with my sweet. I do have one sometimes two cheat days. Always on Friday and sometimes on Thursday too (not often). Friday is my day not to worry about calories. I can't say when my last trip to a fast food joint was. At least a month ago and it was Wendy's. I am setting mini goals for myself. My first mini goal is 50 pounds and I will get a new tattoo. :-) As of right now I have 44 pounds to go!

New Mind Set

Turning 40 last December was not too bad for me. However, now I am starting to stress over it. There are so many things I want to change. I have picked up my cross stitching again. Which brings joy to my heart. I have a third grand-baby on the way. Little Man's momma and her fiance are expecting their little bundle of joy next year. We should find out today what her due date is..

But finally it has hit me.

 I am 40 years old and over weight.. Not just a little over weight but a lot. I feel like such a failure to my friends, my family and most importantly to myself. So. I finally sat down and decided it is time to pee or get off the pot. I have tried many many diet fads. I have been vegetarian and I have eaten meat. I have very little energy. There are some days it takes all that little energy to get out of bed and get to work and work for eight hours then come home (I am sure this is also part of the depression.) I am in a vicious cycle. I am depressed because I am fat. I eat because I am depressed. I gain weight because I eat.  I am depressed because I gain weight.... On and On. Over and Over.  But.. I have taken a step towards a better, lighter me. I have purchased an exercise bike that I get on most nights for a minimum of 15 minutes. I started out at 10 minutes. I have a friend at work who used to be a personal trainer in New York (I don't hold that against her though. lol) who is always giving me encouragement and even has stayed after work to walk a mile with me on the trail at work. She often posts encouraging pictures on my Facebook page such as

I have given up caffeine (almost 2 years ago) and am working on totally giving up soda. I carry a gallon of water into work daily and try to drink as much of it a I can. I have cut out 90% of lethal fast food. I have cut out 95%  of breads and pasta.

I want to be around to watch my grand-babies grow. Watch my daughter grow, graduate University, get married and have her own family.


"To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten

Have a Heart

Please help

A blog that I like to read has put out a call for help. He does not know the person that he is asking for donations for but if there is anyway anyone can help, even if it is just by sharing the original post that would be wonderful.




"To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten

Another Paleo Site I found.

Paleo Parents is such a neat site. I just found this site yesterday. But I have to admit I am enjoying reading their blogs and I LOVE the pictures they put up. I so want to try this recipe Licorice Sausage.



 I have a friend with twins and single (she knows who she is). From that site I found 

Constructive Eating 3-Piece Utensil and Matching Plate Set and Garden Plate & Utensil Set and instantly thought of my Little Man and your 3. How cute are these???? There are even placemats to go with them. 

I moved my computer out into the dining room area so I have better access to it every day (it just wasn't conducive to our family time having it in the bedroom) so I am hoping to be here more often.. 

Just a quick hello and now off to work. 

"To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten

Paleo Lifestyle.

I am really enjoying eating Paleo. I do have to admit that today is the beginning of strict paleo. We have also decided to cut out all beer.. GASP!! The horror I know... But I figure that is the biggest factor in my weight. That and I have a sit down office job.. But I have been trying to get some walking in while I am at work. I part in the back lot that is .25miles from my desk. (figure that is a a sure way to get at least a half mile in)

Some of my favorite sites are Paleomg and Civilized Caveman. I have made two recipes from Paleomg.

                                              Turkey and Spinach Stuffed Sweet Potatoes

and last night was 

Hawaiian Pizza Salad 

Today the Monkey started her Junior year of High school. She is taking two classes at a Virtual School- AP Art History and Latin II. The remaining of her courses will be from the Alpha Omega LifePacs and then also a Physic course. She We are pretty excited about some of her classes.


Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful day!

"To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"



JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten