But finally it has hit me.
I am 40 years old and over weight.. Not just a little over weight but a lot. I feel like such a failure to my friends, my family and most importantly to myself. So. I finally sat down and decided it is time to pee or get off the pot. I have tried many many diet fads. I have been vegetarian and I have eaten meat. I have very little energy. There are some days it takes all that little energy to get out of bed and get to work and work for eight hours then come home (I am sure this is also part of the depression.) I am in a vicious cycle. I am depressed because I am fat. I eat because I am depressed. I gain weight because I eat. I am depressed because I gain weight.... On and On. Over and Over. But.. I have taken a step towards a better, lighter me. I have purchased an exercise bike that I get on most nights for a minimum of 15 minutes. I started out at 10 minutes. I have a friend at work who used to be a personal trainer in New York (I don't hold that against her though. lol) who is always giving me encouragement and even has stayed after work to walk a mile with me on the trail at work. She often posts encouraging pictures on my Facebook page such as
I want to be around to watch my grand-babies grow. Watch my daughter grow, graduate University, get married and have her own family.
"To God Be The Glory Great Things He Has Done!"
JMFK 11/27/2010 Gone but never forgotten
